"I understand what you’re saying, and your comments are valuable, but I’m gonna ignore your advice."
one of my followers (she wishes to remain anonymous) gave me an ulta code that was worth $40 and is sending me a goodie bag from bath and body works. she got the gift cards and doesn’t shop/doesn’t really need anything at either store. it legit made me cry.
i love you so much. you have been one of the nicest people i’ve met on here, and the fact that you thought about me when you got those means the world. i wish i could do something nice for you!
nO BUT WHAT IF YOU HAD A LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP WITH SOMEONE AND YOU MAILED THEM THIS CARD AND PUT A PLANE TICKET INSIDE HOW FUCKING CUTE WOULD THAT BE
"I want to live the rest of my life, however long or short, with as much sweetness as I can decently manage, loving all the people I love, and doing as much as I can of the work I still have to do. I am going to write fire until it comes out of my ears, my eyes, my noseholes—everywhere. Until it’s every breath I breathe. I’m going to go out like a fucking meteor"
ok so here’s the gist of what’s been up in my life as of late :)
i had my pacemaker surgery to have the stimulator put in, and it has yet to do anything but make my symptoms worse… i just had the voltage raised on it on thursday, but so far all it’s done is give me terrible heartburn and make my dysphagia come back. so we shall see.
my UTI is still here (for those keeping score it has now been 13 and a half months. STRAIGHT. and currently i have my fourth kidney infection and i’m pretty sure that either my kidney stones are growing, multiplying, or stuck. because OUCH.
i can’t see my infectious disease doctor because they have to have a referral from a P.C.P. which i do not have because mine no longer takes medicaid. even though medicaid doesnt require me to have a referral and i have been a patient of theirs before. so i have this picc line in that no one is monitoring and no antibiotics for these stupid infections.
i got a refill of insulin today and three bottles cost me THREE DOLLARS.
THREE DOLLARS. holy hell, this is one upside of medicaid.
wes and i are moving into a cottage in manitou in mid august. the whole thing is the size of our living room now, but it’s a free standing cottage with a porch and a backyard and a garden and it’s in manitou and it’s only $65 more than what we’re paying now. I couldn’t even find an apartment in c springs for what we would afford unless it was in the straight ghetto and i refuse to live anyplace more ghetto than where we are now. I. CAN. NOT. WAIT.
my car broke down… again… on the pass to woodland park. (i realize if you’re not from here you have no clue what i’m talking about, basically we were going to a tiny town in the mountains.) it started smoking around the waldo canyon entrance and we turned back
thank God wes was driving because after we turned around, it completely went out and he coasted it in neutral back down to manitou.
we definitely dont have money to fix it, or to get a new one soooo we’re kinda SOL on transportation right now which will make moving to manitou difficult.
wes’ parents are moving to Kansas City and he’s really having a hard time with it. his mom is his best friend and he’s not that close to his dad (his dad and step mom still live here) so he’s really sad, but wants to support them so he’s not showing them how upset he is about it. i feel terrible.
i had a job in the bag - nannying three days a week. but then when i thought about it and did the math and realized she was offering me 5.25 an hour to watch her 6 month old who she told me up front was very clingy. i asked her if we could renegotiate because i usually charge FAMILY $8 an hour, and she got very very angry and rude. so there’s that.
next week i’ll be on mission trip as worship director with the junior high youth. i can’t wait, i love these kids and even though now it’ll be stressful because of the whole not having a car… and my health being so bad… but it’s what i love to do!
so i think that’s about it… you are welcome.
I love your affection.
I love being looked at as if I’m the most beautiful girl to you.
I love the happy moments and positive vibes with you.
I want that feeling for the rest of my life.
please have these very similar but slightly different buncha pictures of me at the beach being a babe in this oversized asoscurve white tee that i wear as a dress. :)
"I would like to travel the world with you twice. Once, to see the world.
Twice, to see the way you see the world."
Favourite lines → Panic! At The Disco